This is me awkwardly posing for the camera. Speaking of being awkward, i'm socially awkward too. I speak without thinking. I talk way too much sometimes. I try really hard to make people laugh. I try really hard to impress people. I try to be the best that i can. Apparently, i can't. I sweat too much. I swear too much. I become irritating and mean when i'm extremely bored. I never mean to hurt anyone with my words. I have incredibly low self esteem and confidence. I'm lazy as hell. I always tend to leave a mess and people have to clean it up for me. I forget important things easily but i remember tons of useless informations. I spend money i don't have. I have a very short attention span. I trust people way too easily. I have my own mature way of seeing the world. You can disagree with me. I am because i don't have any prejudice against anyone or stuff. I don't think that gays are weird and stuff like that if you know what i mean...
I hate wearing skirts. I love wearing jeans or just pants in general. I love wearing T-shirts. I adore Converse shoes. I'm fat. I have a horrible case of dark eye circle and eyebags. My right leg is fucked up. I have 6 scars on it. I have 1 scar on my forehead. My hair is half curly and half straight. What you're seeing in the picture is nice rebonded and tied up hair. Not it's original horrible form.
To you, why are you so insensitive? It's like, you don't have feelings. I don't mean to be mean but seriously... You are constantly criticizing me. Me, on the other hand is always complimenting you but you don't appreciate them at all. You just throw them right back at me. You criticized my favourite shirt. No wait, you criticize almost every shirt i wear. Can't you just let me wear my fucking tshirt in peace? You're just like my mum. Both of you are the only people who say that i've gained weight. Mum, can you please spare a thought for me? Why are you always helping other people? He was making fun of me and i can't be angry about it? It's like, i'm an injured person and the person just come and continue hurting me even more. I can't get angry? Please. I'm a human being too. I'm not as strong as i look.
To you, why are you so insensitive? It's like, you don't have feelings. I don't mean to be mean but seriously... You are constantly criticizing me. Me, on the other hand is always complimenting you but you don't appreciate them at all. You just throw them right back at me. You criticized my favourite shirt. No wait, you criticize almost every shirt i wear. Can't you just let me wear my fucking tshirt in peace? You're just like my mum. Both of you are the only people who say that i've gained weight. Mum, can you please spare a thought for me? Why are you always helping other people? He was making fun of me and i can't be angry about it? It's like, i'm an injured person and the person just come and continue hurting me even more. I can't get angry? Please. I'm a human being too. I'm not as strong as i look.
You think i'm a pure and innocent gurl. Maybe not so much after you saw the Katy Perry videos. You think that i have never had a boyfriend. You think i'm straight. You think i'm kidding when i tell you about my possible syndromes. I'm not. The Alice In Wonderland Syndrome is scary. You don't know how it feels like to have your perception of things messed up.
I can go on forever but my brain is tired and i have to pee... In conclusion, i'm just a horrible person. At least to me i am. I try tho. At least i'm being... myself i guess. I'm not trying hard to be anyone. Not even Katy Perry. I mean seriously. Katy Perry is purfect. I'm not gonna try and be that. I'll leave it to her. Effortlessly beautiful. Heh. I feel relieved idk why. K BYE
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