guys
guys
guuyyyyyyyysss
A part of me still can't believe that this actually happened. The more i look at it, the more.... not real it becomes. Is this real life? Is this just fantasy? It's so surreal. My brain cannot process this. Everybody else probably thinks that i'm overreacting but i have no idea why i'm feeling like this also. HELP ME BABY. I never thought this would happen and it's all i ever wanted but now that it has happen... I DON'T KNOW?!
For the first time in a long time, i feel... human. I finally feel like i exist. Thank you for acknowledging my existence. It's all i ever wanted. Everything i do now seems more... I don't know... You make everything so much better. It's so nice knowing that you know that i exist. I can't emphasize enough on that. It's just something very small to you and you probably won't remember me but oh man. OH MAAAAN. I feel like i've had a connection with you. Something we never had. You've always felt so far away. Sometimes its like you're not even real. Not even human. Now everytime i listen to you sing, watch you perform and whatnot, i feel... something more.
You opened that door. I waited 4+ years. Out there in the pouring rain. You opened that door. You didn't let me in but that was enough. Just that one glance at you. It was all i needed. To be honest i'm greedy as fuck. Now i want more. I want you to let me in. I know it's never gonna happen but its human nature la. I got a taste of what it's like and now i want more more more more more.
I love this power you have over me. Just your name is enough to make me giggle like an idiot. I have no idea why. Whenever somebody else mentions you... I can't help but to smile. After all this time? Always. Forever and always. You can ask me to do anything and i'd do it. I'd do anything and everything for you. This love has taken it's toll on meeeeeeeee. I'm an idiot i know.
Well i guess moral of this story is... DON'T GIVE UP? I don't know?! BELIEVE, GUYS. SHIT WILL HAPPEN. GOOD SHIT SOMETIMES.