Hi i feel much better. Figured that i shouldn't care so much about what others have to say about me. As long as i am being myself. As long as i am happy. As long as i'm not bothering anyone. How does my weight affect other people in any way? Unless i'm morbidly obese until i block the entire pathway or some shit but nope. I SHALL MOVE ON FROM THIS. Alex Day shall be mah inspiration. And of course my babygirl. Be yourself and you can be anything. YOU JUST GOTTA BELIEVE.

Times like this makes me wish that i have my own child. So that i can right the wrongs my parents did. I wouldn't destroy her self esteem. I wouldn't side with others. I wouldn't judge her. You're gay? OKAY! You hate wearing skirts? OKAY! You wanna tshirts all the time? SURE WHY NOT. I don't see the problem. You're a guy who likes doing ballet, a girl who likes guns? That's fine. You're interested in doing seemingly impossible tasks? Sure, give it a go :D Even if you fail, it's alright. You tried. I won't laugh at you. A blind girl can become chef. A guy without hands can play the guitar. Who's to say you can't achieve whatever goal you have? You wanna learn seemingly useless things? Archery, fencing etc? Why not! Life experiences is good. It's still a skill. Who knows, you might be super good at it and have a future in that. I'll be proud of your decisions. As long as it's not things like murder or something. You done badly in an exam? You're going into ITE? I'm sure you would do great :) When people asks, i would proudly say my child is in ITE right now. I will never bring you down. I'll hold you up high. I won't bring you into this world only to cause you so much pain. As long as you're happy, i'm happy.

I know reality and the truth sucks but i'm still human. It still hurts. I know i look like i don't give a crap about anything but i do. Just because i'm very expressive doesn't mean i have to express EVERYTHING. Just because it's not shown doesn't mean it doesn't exist. We're humans. We're humane. We forget that sometimes. I wish i can give my life to someone else who deserve it more than i do. Maybe like the movie In Time. I have way too much time that i don't deserve. Not using it wisely. Why not give it to someone who is running out of time and actually have a purpose in their life? 

No worries. I'll get over this soon enough. Jasmin never wallows in self pity for too long! The sun will always come up... I can't wait to start collecting Life Scouts badges.

rain rain

Sunday!

Went cycling at ecp with Clyde and Dusk. I cycled for like 30 minutes only tho HAHA. It was drizzling and i was damn tired! Been playing mahjong and poker the whole night til morning. So in the end i just sat at some shelter while they cycled LOL. RETARDED. BUT MY BROTHER SAY 30 MINUTES OF CYCLING IS ENOUGH! Cardio! Whatever that means! At one point i was thinking like what if somebody stole my bike. The first thing that popped up of my mind was "I can shoot him off... But i don't have a gun. No wait what the fuck am i doing" *facepalms* You know you have been playing too much video games when you start to think like that AIYOO. Cuz in Red Dead Redemption i always shoot people off their horses... Yknow...

SPEAKING OF RED DEAD REDEMPTION. I am starting to learn Spanish from the game! Not really la. At this point the characters have alot of dialogue in spanish... LIKE I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON. ME NO COMPRENDE. Adios mios!! MA MA MIA? 

Apply cold water to burned area. Literally.

Friday

HI. MY NOSE IS LIKE PEELING RIGHT NOW. Anyways. MY EXAMS ARE OVER. WEEEE. Now all i can do is cross my fingers... and praaaaaaaaaay. I didn't slept the night before the last paper lika boss!! It was in the morning... DAMN YOU SHAREEF JAFFAR OMAR. This is not how you're gonna snatch me away from Aladdin! Anyways went out with the ah chia after school. 

IKEAAAA NOMNOM. Missed the breakfast by awhile. Darn it!!! Oh well. Next time. Then this si chiali made me walk around even though i was damn tired. Kidding la. XD ONE DAY I WILL CATCH THOSE STREET PERFORMERS. ONE DAY........

Saturday

Had a lil bit of sleep and woke up in the morning to go to Moderately Wild Wet with Aidil! ZE FELLOW ASSASSIN. Very wild meh. Hai hao la. Or maybe cuz i've been there too many times hahahahaha. He had a good time laughing at me screaming in fear -.-" I DON'T GET YA'LL PEOPLE WHO AREN'T SCARED. Here i am screaming my tits off and you guys are like -.- whot. WEIRDOSS. WITCH! YOU'RE A WITCH! BURN YOU!!!! Met alot of cute children HAHA. Never meet la. We were observing them from afar like the pedos we are. One kiddo even came and sit with me when we were sun tanning. The mum was like "Your mother is here! not there!" Sorry lady. Them kiddos can't resist me.

SUNBURNT. I LIKE THE TAN THO. Makes me look like i'm healthy. Y U SO TAN? Oh i've been working out alot in the sun. Yknow. Just healthy stuff. Went to my cousin's birthday chalet afterwards. Not much there ah. Just eat eat stone stone talk talk with this idiot

 YOU SUCK K. xD  Forever emo over girls only. Tsktsk. 

 I just realize why our shoe size like the same. NOOO. It either means i have gigantic feet or he has tiny little girl feet. I shall pick the latter.

Sunday bumday

 BUGIS HAZ THE FIX IT FELIX JR ARCADE MACHINE SO COOL HOR. At first glance it's like meh. Okay la. But after playing it like touching it and stuff... I WANT ONE?! Even though it's old school games but yknow what they say! OLD IS GOLD. Jiang hai shi lao de la! If i ever become rich i shall have one of these babies at my house. Went to K suites with chiachia and mini! Very impromptu decision by ze lion.

 At one point that alcoholic wanted to order some cocktails so we went along with it lor. The other 2 of us were virgins in that department! LOL WHOT. ANYWAYS. Did i mention it was like 1 in the afternoon or something. Drinking alcohol at 1 in the afternoon. At least not to the drunken state la. But still. That alcoholic. *shakes head* Need to send her for therapy. 

The lady who kept zilian-ing while singing. HAHAH. Sorry we didn't know much chinese songs :( I'm werking on it biatch!

 My face looks so red here xD TOMATO. Chiali's face got red also from that lil bit of alcohol tsk. Noob la. :P You couldn't tell mine cuz it's already red from the burn hiakhiakhiak

 peekaboo. There's a few others unglam pictures... I shall keep it and use it for blackmail next time... Could come in handy.

Woooshhh. bye

HIHIHIHIHI byebyebyebye

THEM DIMPLES. SHO CUTE.

Just wanted to put a picture of her for no reason. I'M SO TIRED RIGHT NOW. I was so tired last night but it was warm until i can't fucking sleep jeezus weather what is wrong with you get your shit together. I would rather have raindrops falling on my head. SUN, I DON'T LIKE THE WAY YOU GOT THINGS DONE. GO SLEEP ON YOUR JOB k i should be studying and stuff ARGH IM SO TIRED AND WARRRRMM KILL ME NOWWWW. This post is just... random and not needed! OH WAIT JUST FOUND A REASON FOR IT.

AIYO. Kinda annoyed that you're so worried over this kinda small stuff -.-" I'm just meeting a girl to give her hamsters. Not meeting a bunch of rapist. Dafuq is with you. I get that it's a good thing to be concern but please be concerned over stuff that actually matters okkkk. Don't know why but you just really annoy me sometimes. The way you even type bothers me sometimes. LIKE INSTEAD OF JUST SAYING "It's not working" you'll say "it's failing on me" and how you try and be all formal IT BOTHERS ME. IT DOES. And how you're so sensitive kill me please omg i'm so angsty right now

Touching the touchy

Hi it's 6:30am and i'm suppose to be studying but i am here to touch on a very very touchy subject. Religion. No offence to anyone one huh. Not trying to diss your beliefs or anything. Just... curious. Not a debate or anything! Just me and my train of thoughts. Needa get rid of them and concentrate on my studies :p

Okay so now on facebook or twitter, you confirm will have some malay friends right? And at least one of them would be posting about their religion stuff ALL THE TIME. Okay and Christians too... So... Is it okay for an Atheist to post about their "religion"? They're voicing out on what they believe in and we're just voicing out on what we believe in. Fair? No? I should just keep my thoughts to myself? Then shouldn't you guys? Isn't there some freedom of speech thing :p K wait that's for america huh. And the weird thing is we don't ever see any Buddhist talking about their religion huh :p No quotes from the script or whatever the buddha said. 

I don't understand how someone can believe so much into something... Okay maybe it's sorta like my obsession with Katy Perry. Yes? No? Your bible is equivalent to my knowledge about Katy Perry. AND SERIOUSLY NO OFFENCE BUT at least Katy Perry is a human being... Like... She's there. She exist...? And you guys dare call me crazy? But who am i to say there's no gods right huh. But even if there is, there is bound to be more than one whaaaat. Why ya'll can't just accept. If people don't believe in your god then it's a sin omg they must die wrong path wrong belief wrong faith. No. SAME THING K. YA'LL SHOULD JUST GET ALONG. 

It's not a bad thing la... Like i said i'm not dissing on any of ya'll. Just trying to understand and like rationalize with myself. Believers will think i'm dumb for not believing and non believers will think i'm dumb for doubting. XD I guess it's good that ya'll have something to believe in. Something that keeps you guys motivated? But stop crediting god for everything la... Bothers me when people work so hard so something and thank god in the end. No please. THANK YOURSELF K.God didn't give you strength!! Your own belief gave you strength. Placebo effect? I don't know. 

2013 liao.

HURRAH HOW EXCITING. I should be studying right now but instead i took pictures of myself. ENJoOOoOyYyYYyy

I IZ MODEL. HIRE ME HUR HUR. (Just showing off my tattoo WHICH LOOKS SLANTED WHEN ITS AT THIS ANGLE ITS ACTUALLY VERY CHIO KKKKKK)

 cyclops

 SEE NO EVIL SPEAK NO EVIL BUT SMELL ALL THEM EVILS 

 i'm asian i can do this just look at my slanty asian small puny eyes right

i have no idea. Oh well i know i'm a few days late but happy new year! LOL. New year, same old Jasmin! YAYYYYYY. 

CHERRY FOREVER

 this was after cheryl said "You've heard her song, i kissed a girl and i liked it."

I CAN'T. MY HEART. BRB DYING.

50 Shades of Katy

I can't take this anymore i'm literally about to cry and out of breath because i don't even know why. So long long ago, Katy Perry was on x factor and she was like obsessed with Cheryl and stuff... Then later they were on the Graham Norton show together and i have always thought that they look cute together but i didn't think much about it afterwards... Until now!!! When i discovered Cherry Fan Fiction...

This right here ladies and gentlemen. Is Cherry. Cheryl Cole and Katy freaking Perry. KILL ME NOW. I read finish all the chapters from one writer and it's all stuck in my head T.T I just keep rewatching the interview and my mind is just going bonkers. I CAN'T SEPARATE REALITY FROM FICTION. I DON'T WANT TO.

 I MEAN LOOK. SO ADORABLE. PLEASE JUST. I CAN'T SO CUTE. I'M ABOUT TO EXPLODE. Now i understand... I used to be like dafuq is with fan fictions and shipping and shit. NOW I UNDERSTAND. I REALLY DO T.T Danisnotonfire, i should have listened to you T.T I should have ran away from it. Now i'm stuck. Oh well...

I just gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love

Murry Curstmurs

Itz da first time ever that i'm actually doing something for christmas LOL. WELL. There is a first time for everything!!! Been neglecting ze blog lately... SO LAZY TO WRITE STUFF. Aiyo. The point is i went out, i did things. The end xD I shall let my feelings about Cherry explode in a later post... 

 The lion and ant came over! Watched like 2 and a half movies. Freaking Cabin In The Woods. ITS NOT THAT SCARY. Only suddenly like pop out scare you kind. Fuckers. But there was one scene that was bloody epic. Pun intended!! Watched Pitch Perfect again because that movie is da bomb :p I VANNA BE IN AN ACAPELLA GROUP KKK. I am so so so addicted to Takoyakis... If i had to eat ONE thing for the rest of my life it would be Takoyakis.... Okay off topic i'm so hungry

 MRS CLAUS! The one who came empty handed :P Yah we were s'pose to exchange presents but well. :P We expected this xiao mei mei to be broke so its okay LOL. Pitch Perfect made us wanna go to Kbox :P BUT LION. Y U NO WANT GO WITH US :( We trai singing chinese songs kkk. We book the kbox for like 100000000 hours. 

 Don't kill me :P Pardon my very messy floor. Watched abit of PROMETHEUS. Damn gross argh. Why watch all the gross shows. Harry Potter marathon soon? :P That ant confirm cannot take it one LOL. Watch 2 movies she already very distracted pffffft. ANYWAYS HERE ARE DA PRESENTS I GOT!

 Spongebob coloring set from Clyde :P Yep. I'm 5 years old. AND DA KATY PERRY BOOK FROM CHIALI. Shit la. My gift feels so inferior from that :p But it's the thought that counts right? :P I made cards and stuff yknow. *puppy dog eyes* It's not christmas here anymore but it is christmas in america... soooo

MERRY CHRISTMAS! From Iron Man and Darth Vader xD Picture grabbed from ant's twitter. Bai.

i can't

i can't get over the dream i had akjsdlakjd i don't remember how it started but i was just sitting on the floor with KATY PERRY and somebody else i don't remember. BUT ITS NOT IMPORTANT HAHAHA. She was sitting directly infront of me with abit of space in between... Then we were just casually chatting and i was asking her questions about her ex lovers. She was like she had a girlfriend before and she gave her first kiss to that person and i was like "Oh then how was it?" then she said "like this!" and she like crawled over?! not crawl la as in the space very small so she was kinda like how she is in the picture above. Leaned over and kissed me on the lips aksjdlkasjdlkasjd BRB DYING. IT FELT SO REAL WHY DID IT HAVE TO END in my dream i was also dying oh god why. 

Presents and stuff!

 FINALLY GOT THE CALENDER I WANT FROM CHIALI HEHEHEHE THANK YOU.

 IPAD MINI FROM MY DAD OMGGG. TOTALLY UNEXPECTED.

 FINALLY! BOOK 2 FROM CLYDEEEE

 SHIRT FROM MY MUM

 AND THIS ALSO FROM MY MUM

 IM VERY LAZY TO WRITE STUFF NOW SO I'LL JUST WRITE CAPTIONS FOR PICTURES LOL. On my birthday itself went to eat Astons before class with Clyde and Chiali xD NEW YORK STRIPPPPPPYYYY. I lub chu.

After school went to eat SUSHIII with my mother and brooo. Wooooshhh chawanmushi you delicious egg

 SATURDAY! The day after my birthday. Went to Marina Square to meet Aidil! 

 He treat me to pizza hutttt

 AND GAVE ME THIS BOOK OMG. FUCKING EXPENSIVE ONE KLASJDLKASJD. AC3 GUIDEBOOK. THANK YOU. And the thing is barely know him :p AND ITS LIKE THE COLLECTOR'S EDITION KIND OMG GOT MAP AND SHIZZ KLASJDLKAJSDLK

 DRAWN BY FATIMAH! ITS KATY PERRY! SO NICE HOR. I KNOW.

 SUNDAY WENT TO JP TO STUDY WITH CHIALI. She study ah. I read book and play iPad LOL. PEPPER LUNCH. This is delicious. omg. Expensive tho. 16 dorrahs. don't care. shall eat it at least once a week. chehh.

 RICE AND EGG IS DA BOMB.

 MONDAY! Rina made red velvet cupcakes for muahh. HEHEHEH. THANK YOU. Went to starbucks after school with chiachia and mini.

CHEEEESECAKE

 All 3 christmas drinks xD

Life milestone!

My name is Lexy Auditore of the House Hufflepuff. The first in my name. BEEN WATCHING ALOT OF GAME OF THRONES. My brain is ravaged by it's.... stuff... ANYWAYS. That ain't the point of this. The point is... i'm 18! Yay. *small cheer* Never thought i'd made it this far. Never thought i'd be friends with some of ya'll. Never thought that anybody would like me. Never thought that i'd ever have a chance with an Ang Moh :P Never thought that i'd have an iPad. Never thought that i'd ever get to see Katy Perry. I've been through so much. So so so much. Thank you to everybody who have been in my life. You guys have sculpted me. Here i am standing. Love me, hate me, say what you want about me but all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek amy. I have been through the pervy phase, emo phase, complete bliss phase, depressed phase and the suicidal phase in life. I ain't afraid of nothin' no more! Other than cockroaches... And bugs... Now all i see is hope. And hope is all i need for it is the only thing stronger than fear. May the odds be ever in my favor. 

Wednesday? Friday and Saturday!

NOT MUCH TO SAAAAY. PICTURESSSSSSSSSS. I think this was wednesday or was it thursday. My memory is failing me.

 RING POP!! Omg. Candy Empire sell these babies. I was eating it in class and that Shareef Jaffar keeps saying it's a pacifier wahliew. I seriously hope he didn't really take pictures/videos tho LOL OMG. SO AWKWARD. WHYE. It's a rriiiinnnnngggggggg. Anyways! Bought ze mini mahjong set for my brother! His birthday nia. I put it in my nerf gun's box and wrapped it up :p

 Didn't have enough wrapping paper. LOL. EXPENSIVE SIOL. 4 dollars per piece dafuq!? But it is pretty tho. And it's in the rubbish chute right now.

 This is my mother's art LOL. SO CUTE RIGHT. She actually tried to design it. Cute ass.

 Look at how big her box is LOL. And you know what's inside? A phone. Samsung S3 to be exact. My brother happy liao lor!!! 

On friday 

Clyde and Chiali came overrrr and my brother booked out!

 The end is near.

 Is it wrong to like a picture of yourself? Not wrong la... Just abit vain... We watched my brother open his present and i took a videooo. So retarded :p At least he is happy with his present loh. Tsk. I SO NICE TO HIM. WERE MAH PRESENT BITCH. You betta get me one as awesome as the one i got you. HAHAH KIDDING. Played monopoly deal and truth or dare!! DARED CLYDE TO HUG MY BROTHER AND HE DID KLASJDLKAJSDLKASJDLKJ LOL DAMN WEIRD I SWEAR

 JCUBE HAZ TIZ. Mah bbygirl

 SATURDAY! TODAYYYY. 

Was suppose to go to Expo today for the IT fair but chiachia lazy :p Just went to bugis instead. Omg. We finished walking around the entire Bugis Street. LIKABOSS. HOLY FUCK MY DAD JUST FARTED OMG DYING SRSLY WHY. OMG. Shall go back there someday and buy some shoes........ Must take a break from Converse some time yknow. Variety :p Then went to Holland V to find the fat ant. I have never beeeen thereeee. 

 Fat ant was working at CRUST PIZZA. Some of the shops there no signboard one?! Like you walk pass you won't even know the shop you're looking for is there. SO WEIRRRDDDD. SO CONFUSINGGGGGG.

 THEM PIZZAS ARE GOOOD. Not orgasmic but not bad. I am currently watching Twilight like what the fuck is with Bella didn't she just say she's gonna marry Edward why the fuck is she making out with Jacob. Like seriously what. 

 LOOK AT MY AWESOME EZLINK STICKA. Pokepoke.

 Here is Chiachia. Oh no wait i mean SAILORMOOOOOOOOOOOOOON.

 Here is the fat ant. So photogenic huh huh

 "Wah the sky very nice! Must take picture!" Anyways went to The Star Vista? At BONER vista! That place bo aircon niaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. BUT GOT ALLSCRIPT. But now no magazine with my babygirl on the coverrrrrr. TSSSSSK!!! And now i'm home and tired as ballllslsasdasd HERE ARE ZE THINGS I BOUGHT!

 Okay this one Clyde buy for me one. As me birthday present. WOOSH LIKE FINALLY. They have a third book coming out tho! Omg. And it's the depressing comic edition omg i want.

 DIARY OF A WIMPY KID!!!! WOOOSH. I feel like sucha kiddo for liking this tho. XD

AND THE TSHIRTS YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. WIsh there were more variety. Hmmm. NEvermind next time go the comic shop buy. More expensive but AKJSdLKAJSDLKAJSDLKSAJD