Motivation

It sucks to know that you will never ever notice me. It's my fault for not trying hard enough but I don't know what to do. I'm not funny or creative enough to create something to get your attention. I can't draw, I can't sing and I can't write. Jealousy is eating me up right now. All those other katycats that've got your attention... I'm happy for them, really. They deserved it. But there's just this sense of... Just... URGH. I wish that was me.

So what can a girl with no talent do? Work. That's exactly what I'm going to do. Get a degree in communications, work for the media. Maybe one day i will get to interview or just meet you when you come to Singapore. I am going to work hard for you. If only I had this motivation earlier. I suppose it's never too late to start now. I will persevere to the end. Even when I'm 70 and you're 80. If there's a will, there's a way. Wait for me, Katy Perry. I love you and thank you for being you. You make me a better person.

     

Lifescouts #2: Rollercoaster

Oh man i really miss the Transformers 4D ride at USS. IT WAS SO GOOD. The first time ever that i'm not scared of a rollercoaster... Well, it wasn't really a rollercoaster i suppose? Just a 4D effect. BUT IT WAS SO DOPEEEEEE. ANYWAYS

My first rollercoaster experience was at a night market. A tiny tiny ride. Didn't go very high up but i remember it being really fast with really tight turns. The cart or whatever you call the thingy you sit in was a dragon!! My brother brainwashed me to get on :( HE PROMISED ME IT WASN'T SCARY. I regret everything. I was scared to the point where i couldn't move or say anything? Like somebody performed the petrificus totalus spell on me T.T My brother sat infront of me and i remember him TURNING AROUND AND LAUGHING. WHAT IN THE WORLD. HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE. And my mum was beside me screaming. The moment we got off my legs just turned jelly.

Until now i've never gotten over my fear :( Before i even get on any of the rides, my mind just goes wild and think of all the heights. The moment before the plunge. THE WAY DOWN. OH GOD. I can feel my stomach coming out from my mouth. Thinking of how i would just faint and just fall off the ride and die. Or maybe have a heart attack or maybe even scream till my throat tears aksldjakldja. Really wanna get over this fear tho... SOME DAY I WILL! But today is not the day!!!

Lifescouts #1: Pet Owning

I've had hamsters for as long as i can remember. Bought my first one at some shabby old shop around my house. I cannot remember what breed they were? All i remember is that their "butts" were very prominent at the back. Sticking right out! We used hold them up by that and laugh. A little sadistic i know. I was young kkkkk. Until now then i realise, those weren't actually their butts -.-" ITS THEIR GOD DAMN BALLLLSS. THEY'RE MALE HAMSTERSSSS. We violated them oh god. *Washes hand profusely* 

Every time a hamster die, i swear i wouldn't get another but somehow, they just kept coming. Some from my brother and there was one that belonged to him and his ex-girlfriend *shakes head* Youngsters. There was one that wandered into my house door? Like i was just standing there and my neighbour started pointing to something at my feet and BOOM. A HAMSTER. It walked right into my house door!??! I had to keep it. I still remember him. My sleepyhead.

Fast forward to today. My King Kong just died awhile ago :( I still miss her T.T My silly little goose T.T My cow T.T Given to me by a friend who is also gone. MOVING ON BECAUSE THIS IS MAKING ME VERY SAD ASLDKJALJD It was beauty who killed the beast :(

I can go into details about a few more other hammies i've had but it'd be too long. There's still my fattypooooooooo. And his wife. And his generation of kids. His great grandchild or something is still alive. The last in his legacy!!!! and it'll end right here.