Hi i feel much better. Figured that i shouldn't care so much about what others have to say about me. As long as i am being myself. As long as i am happy. As long as i'm not bothering anyone. How does my weight affect other people in any way? Unless i'm morbidly obese until i block the entire pathway or some shit but nope. I SHALL MOVE ON FROM THIS. Alex Day shall be mah inspiration. And of course my babygirl. Be yourself and you can be anything. YOU JUST GOTTA BELIEVE.

Times like this makes me wish that i have my own child. So that i can right the wrongs my parents did. I wouldn't destroy her self esteem. I wouldn't side with others. I wouldn't judge her. You're gay? OKAY! You hate wearing skirts? OKAY! You wanna tshirts all the time? SURE WHY NOT. I don't see the problem. You're a guy who likes doing ballet, a girl who likes guns? That's fine. You're interested in doing seemingly impossible tasks? Sure, give it a go :D Even if you fail, it's alright. You tried. I won't laugh at you. A blind girl can become chef. A guy without hands can play the guitar. Who's to say you can't achieve whatever goal you have? You wanna learn seemingly useless things? Archery, fencing etc? Why not! Life experiences is good. It's still a skill. Who knows, you might be super good at it and have a future in that. I'll be proud of your decisions. As long as it's not things like murder or something. You done badly in an exam? You're going into ITE? I'm sure you would do great :) When people asks, i would proudly say my child is in ITE right now. I will never bring you down. I'll hold you up high. I won't bring you into this world only to cause you so much pain. As long as you're happy, i'm happy.

I know reality and the truth sucks but i'm still human. It still hurts. I know i look like i don't give a crap about anything but i do. Just because i'm very expressive doesn't mean i have to express EVERYTHING. Just because it's not shown doesn't mean it doesn't exist. We're humans. We're humane. We forget that sometimes. I wish i can give my life to someone else who deserve it more than i do. Maybe like the movie In Time. I have way too much time that i don't deserve. Not using it wisely. Why not give it to someone who is running out of time and actually have a purpose in their life? 

No worries. I'll get over this soon enough. Jasmin never wallows in self pity for too long! The sun will always come up... I can't wait to start collecting Life Scouts badges.

rain rain

Sunday!

Went cycling at ecp with Clyde and Dusk. I cycled for like 30 minutes only tho HAHA. It was drizzling and i was damn tired! Been playing mahjong and poker the whole night til morning. So in the end i just sat at some shelter while they cycled LOL. RETARDED. BUT MY BROTHER SAY 30 MINUTES OF CYCLING IS ENOUGH! Cardio! Whatever that means! At one point i was thinking like what if somebody stole my bike. The first thing that popped up of my mind was "I can shoot him off... But i don't have a gun. No wait what the fuck am i doing" *facepalms* You know you have been playing too much video games when you start to think like that AIYOO. Cuz in Red Dead Redemption i always shoot people off their horses... Yknow...

SPEAKING OF RED DEAD REDEMPTION. I am starting to learn Spanish from the game! Not really la. At this point the characters have alot of dialogue in spanish... LIKE I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON. ME NO COMPRENDE. Adios mios!! MA MA MIA? 

Apply cold water to burned area. Literally.

Friday

HI. MY NOSE IS LIKE PEELING RIGHT NOW. Anyways. MY EXAMS ARE OVER. WEEEE. Now all i can do is cross my fingers... and praaaaaaaaaay. I didn't slept the night before the last paper lika boss!! It was in the morning... DAMN YOU SHAREEF JAFFAR OMAR. This is not how you're gonna snatch me away from Aladdin! Anyways went out with the ah chia after school. 

IKEAAAA NOMNOM. Missed the breakfast by awhile. Darn it!!! Oh well. Next time. Then this si chiali made me walk around even though i was damn tired. Kidding la. XD ONE DAY I WILL CATCH THOSE STREET PERFORMERS. ONE DAY........

Saturday

Had a lil bit of sleep and woke up in the morning to go to Moderately Wild Wet with Aidil! ZE FELLOW ASSASSIN. Very wild meh. Hai hao la. Or maybe cuz i've been there too many times hahahahaha. He had a good time laughing at me screaming in fear -.-" I DON'T GET YA'LL PEOPLE WHO AREN'T SCARED. Here i am screaming my tits off and you guys are like -.- whot. WEIRDOSS. WITCH! YOU'RE A WITCH! BURN YOU!!!! Met alot of cute children HAHA. Never meet la. We were observing them from afar like the pedos we are. One kiddo even came and sit with me when we were sun tanning. The mum was like "Your mother is here! not there!" Sorry lady. Them kiddos can't resist me.

SUNBURNT. I LIKE THE TAN THO. Makes me look like i'm healthy. Y U SO TAN? Oh i've been working out alot in the sun. Yknow. Just healthy stuff. Went to my cousin's birthday chalet afterwards. Not much there ah. Just eat eat stone stone talk talk with this idiot

 YOU SUCK K. xD  Forever emo over girls only. Tsktsk. 

 I just realize why our shoe size like the same. NOOO. It either means i have gigantic feet or he has tiny little girl feet. I shall pick the latter.

Sunday bumday

 BUGIS HAZ THE FIX IT FELIX JR ARCADE MACHINE SO COOL HOR. At first glance it's like meh. Okay la. But after playing it like touching it and stuff... I WANT ONE?! Even though it's old school games but yknow what they say! OLD IS GOLD. Jiang hai shi lao de la! If i ever become rich i shall have one of these babies at my house. Went to K suites with chiachia and mini! Very impromptu decision by ze lion.

 At one point that alcoholic wanted to order some cocktails so we went along with it lor. The other 2 of us were virgins in that department! LOL WHOT. ANYWAYS. Did i mention it was like 1 in the afternoon or something. Drinking alcohol at 1 in the afternoon. At least not to the drunken state la. But still. That alcoholic. *shakes head* Need to send her for therapy. 

The lady who kept zilian-ing while singing. HAHAH. Sorry we didn't know much chinese songs :( I'm werking on it biatch!

 My face looks so red here xD TOMATO. Chiali's face got red also from that lil bit of alcohol tsk. Noob la. :P You couldn't tell mine cuz it's already red from the burn hiakhiakhiak

 peekaboo. There's a few others unglam pictures... I shall keep it and use it for blackmail next time... Could come in handy.

Woooshhh. bye

HIHIHIHIHI byebyebyebye

THEM DIMPLES. SHO CUTE.

Just wanted to put a picture of her for no reason. I'M SO TIRED RIGHT NOW. I was so tired last night but it was warm until i can't fucking sleep jeezus weather what is wrong with you get your shit together. I would rather have raindrops falling on my head. SUN, I DON'T LIKE THE WAY YOU GOT THINGS DONE. GO SLEEP ON YOUR JOB k i should be studying and stuff ARGH IM SO TIRED AND WARRRRMM KILL ME NOWWWW. This post is just... random and not needed! OH WAIT JUST FOUND A REASON FOR IT.

AIYO. Kinda annoyed that you're so worried over this kinda small stuff -.-" I'm just meeting a girl to give her hamsters. Not meeting a bunch of rapist. Dafuq is with you. I get that it's a good thing to be concern but please be concerned over stuff that actually matters okkkk. Don't know why but you just really annoy me sometimes. The way you even type bothers me sometimes. LIKE INSTEAD OF JUST SAYING "It's not working" you'll say "it's failing on me" and how you try and be all formal IT BOTHERS ME. IT DOES. And how you're so sensitive kill me please omg i'm so angsty right now

Touching the touchy

Hi it's 6:30am and i'm suppose to be studying but i am here to touch on a very very touchy subject. Religion. No offence to anyone one huh. Not trying to diss your beliefs or anything. Just... curious. Not a debate or anything! Just me and my train of thoughts. Needa get rid of them and concentrate on my studies :p

Okay so now on facebook or twitter, you confirm will have some malay friends right? And at least one of them would be posting about their religion stuff ALL THE TIME. Okay and Christians too... So... Is it okay for an Atheist to post about their "religion"? They're voicing out on what they believe in and we're just voicing out on what we believe in. Fair? No? I should just keep my thoughts to myself? Then shouldn't you guys? Isn't there some freedom of speech thing :p K wait that's for america huh. And the weird thing is we don't ever see any Buddhist talking about their religion huh :p No quotes from the script or whatever the buddha said. 

I don't understand how someone can believe so much into something... Okay maybe it's sorta like my obsession with Katy Perry. Yes? No? Your bible is equivalent to my knowledge about Katy Perry. AND SERIOUSLY NO OFFENCE BUT at least Katy Perry is a human being... Like... She's there. She exist...? And you guys dare call me crazy? But who am i to say there's no gods right huh. But even if there is, there is bound to be more than one whaaaat. Why ya'll can't just accept. If people don't believe in your god then it's a sin omg they must die wrong path wrong belief wrong faith. No. SAME THING K. YA'LL SHOULD JUST GET ALONG. 

It's not a bad thing la... Like i said i'm not dissing on any of ya'll. Just trying to understand and like rationalize with myself. Believers will think i'm dumb for not believing and non believers will think i'm dumb for doubting. XD I guess it's good that ya'll have something to believe in. Something that keeps you guys motivated? But stop crediting god for everything la... Bothers me when people work so hard so something and thank god in the end. No please. THANK YOURSELF K.God didn't give you strength!! Your own belief gave you strength. Placebo effect? I don't know. 

2013 liao.

HURRAH HOW EXCITING. I should be studying right now but instead i took pictures of myself. ENJoOOoOyYyYYyy

I IZ MODEL. HIRE ME HUR HUR. (Just showing off my tattoo WHICH LOOKS SLANTED WHEN ITS AT THIS ANGLE ITS ACTUALLY VERY CHIO KKKKKK)

 cyclops

 SEE NO EVIL SPEAK NO EVIL BUT SMELL ALL THEM EVILS 

 i'm asian i can do this just look at my slanty asian small puny eyes right

i have no idea. Oh well i know i'm a few days late but happy new year! LOL. New year, same old Jasmin! YAYYYYYY.