I'm terrified

I think that i may be losing my mind

Hahhhhh :3

I feel very extremely happy and excited right now because I'M GETTING THIS TOMORROW. AHHH. Couldn't find it that time but now someone has found it for me!! Even tho you will probably never ever see this, THANK YOU AYUUU AHHHHHHHHH. Happy gurl is happy. HEHEHEHEHEHE. I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter~ You are the best thing that's never been mine~

I feel very insecure when my toys are not in my sight... For example, now i don't know where i left my Thor helmet but i'm lazy to go out and find :/ And also because i'm scared cause it's 2.43am in the freaking morning. How how?

I WANT MORE TOYS

To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die

I don't know why but i love seeing her wear normal clothes. As in like... Not her outfits and stuff but t-shirt or singlet and jeans, with her hair tied back and stuff. Ahh. You look pretty in anything :3 Oh and in class yesterday, we had to introduce ourselves to the Australian guest by saying our name and something interesting about us. I said, "My name is Jasmin and i..." -interrupted by the guys- "LOVE KATY PERRY" LOL. I'm like "Waitwait! Let me finish! ... And Katy Perry is my wife." BAM. Now everybody knows. HAHA k random

Just let me dieeeeeeeee

Self esteem is at a new low. I feel so fucking disgusting right now... Note that i don't feel disgusted. I feel disgusting. There's a difference. Urgh, it sucks living with a perfectionist. I'm sorry that i can't be perfect okay? Nobody can. Except for Katy Perry... Nobody else can okay? Do you know how hard it is for me? Everytime you see me, you're just like CAN YOU EAT LESSER, CAN YOU SLEEP EARLIER, YOU'RE SO FAT NOW, YOU'RE SO UGLY NOW. I know it's good for me or whatever but it really... hurts... I have feelings too. I have emotions. I'm so sick of me always being so sensitive towards your feelings but all you do is hurt me and tear me apart.

write this here quickly before i forget

I JUST DREAMED OF KATY PERRY. It's not much but OMG. OKOK. It starts as me walking to go singfest or something. Then there's a fucking long way to go. Then i was with sockghim and i forget who else. I was wearing my elmo shirt. THENTHENTHEN. From super far i saw someone with blue hair then im like OMG IS THAT KATY? I remember i said THAT IS DEFINITELY THE CALIFORNIA GURL. So i started walking faster and faster. Than right, halfway there SUDDENLY, i saw another woman wear this big hat covering her face. IT WAS KATY. MY BABY GURL. Me and the 2 other people and katy were the only one there!! I WAS LIKE, HYPERVENTILATING. OMGOMGOMGOMGKATY. Then i was like smiling like an idiot. Then she of course saw me too. Then she was trying to keep a low profile so she quietly say like, she needs to go, gave me a big smile and left. AWW ): NO PICTURE NO NOTHING BUT STILL. She looked so... beautiful ): Then after that suddenly i'm at home. THEN I WAS ON TV. WHAT. Cuz they were like highlighting the singfest. Then got the part where i saw katy on it. SO WEIRD. HAHAHA K THE END

Hate To Love Her

I know that I hate her

Even though I love her

She's making my heart hurt

I can't describe how I hate her

Everytime I'm with her,

All I do is want her

Why do I even try?

I give her all I've got to give

But she makes it so hard to live

And I do everything I can

But she wants, she wants, she wants

She wants a perfect man

My love's the simple kind

But it's hard to find me with anyone else

They would get in line

But she's all that I can see

Something's wrong with me

Cause i could never be

All that she wants

-Blake Lewis

(Edited)

Annoyed with other people's problems.

People should really learn how to appreciate... I'm not saying that i appreciate everything but at least i try. You guys don't even bother. Pisses the fuck out of me. Maybe it's just that i don't feel appreciated so i think that you don't appreciate anything. You probably do. You appreciate everything else other than me. Awesome.

To another person. STOP. LEADING. HER. ON. This is why guys are jerks sometimes. If you don't like her, stop giving her all the wrong signals. You claim that you have no feelings for her but why are you still so close to her? Bringing her home, locking yourself in the room with her and basically acting like a couple. Really? You are just being a fucking jerk. Holding her up so high, making her feel like she has a chance again, then dropping her into a ditch and leaving her there to die. Oh, did i mention this is like, the 3rd time? Smooth. Seriously, just stop it. Not cool.

I don't badmouth about someone if i don't know them. Like that time my mum was saying about this guy who was constantly late to work. I was defending him. I don't know why but i just felt the need to. Mum, he's a new guy. You barely knew him. What if he really has problems and can't help being late? I know it's wrong but give him a god damn break. Stop shooting him down. He's a human being too. You wouldn't like it if you really had to be late for valid reasons and the rest of the people just keeps talking bad about you behind their back right? Yeah. So don't do that.

"You must be a weasley!"

So cute T.T *Hugs the computer screen*