I honestly can't get over this picture. The lady with her face down on the floor is actually KATY PERRY. What was she doing? Wrestling. GO BABY. She lost tho... As you can see from the picture. LOL. This is an old picture btw... Then Travis Mccoy had to carry her off LOL. She was drunk or something... Hnggggg. I love you so much.

Okay moving on. Today i went out with mah mum. Bought milk, koko krunch, a t shirt and a new tv. I ain't even kidding. It's not even a small tv. It's a huge ass LED tv. LOL. Maybe not huge ass but it's like 42 inches? LED HD TV. I'm not sure if its HD... I know it's LED only... Oh god... It's only delivered on Tuesday tho. Sad. I have decided that i'mma get a credit card when i grow up. LIKE OMG. Buy all those TV and shitzxc by installments is like wow. But i think it's kinda dangerous tho cuz you know... Later i spendspendspend until no money to pay then i die. SIAN LOL. ANYWAYS. Next my mum is aiming for a washing machine!! I'm more interested in a new fridge leh. Those with the... thingy outside that can press out water. YOU KNOW? LOL. Okay stop.

Going out tmozzzz. Weeee. Gonna wear mah new shirt. heh.

There's so many things we're not...

I feel like... I've built this wall between me and you... It's because of the California Dreams tour... I'm sorry... I feel like i'm drifiting away from you and i don't want that to happen T.T Jealousy is tearing us apart. Mostly me... It's destroying me!! I don't want to not love you because... you are the reason why i wake up every afternoon... Without you, i feel like... life is so pointless? My walls would be empty... I wouldn't know what to put for my desktop and phone wallpaper... When i grow up, i wanna earn money so that i can be closer to you. If it wasn't for you, i don't think i will be even a little bit motivated to do anything... Please don't let me let you go...

...but with what we have, i promise you that i'm marching on

I don't know why but there's a small part of me still hoping that you will... Sigh

Ohhh okay... idk lol

I was walking home carrying my box of pizzas and i suddenly realise why i'm always like... sad. I'm always... focusing on the things i don't have... For example, i don't have Katy Perry.

And i don't have you.

I keep on thinking about that over and over in my head. I keep on thinking that i have a very horrible life and i totally neglected all the things i have!! If i just see all the wonderful things i have now, i would be more happy? I think. I don't know. BUT the thing is... I am willing to give up EVERYTHING i have now for 1 thing... Katy Perry ): Okay i'm having a a hard time convincing myself... I can't get over her T.T All of the memories so close to me, just fade away~

okay this was... very messy. I don't know what i'm saying. Random i think. I don't know... It's 3am... I'm tired. You are everything everything i wanted~

you're better than the best

So i went online and search for like... Fan fictions cuz i was bored. Of course the Katy Perry ones and there'ss only 4 words to describe all. Oh my fcking god. Those people have really... Active imagination. Their descriptions are really just good tho. I remember teacher got say a good descriptive essay is those like when you read, you can totally have that image in your mind and those fan fictions really achieved that!!! Even tho the stories are abit... wrong. Let me paste a part of it here. A part that is not so wrong. I edited some words tho xp

"Her full natural chest filled her tiny bikini top, while her narrow waist flared out gently to her round butt, which was clearly evident despite the fullness of her short skirt and long pale legs. She was a star in the making."

Good job eh. There's only one song that can describe how i feel. Teenage Dream. The way you turn me on, i can't sleep~ Let's run away and never look back! Okay i'm sorry if this was disturbing. I feel as if nobody is seeing my blog mah. So it's like my diary and i can say whatever the crap i want... Wait. Why am i even explaining this to you? Meh. Nevermind. Wifeyy love love love. I'm avoiding tumblr... Which means... No new katy perry pics... CUZ THEY ALL POSTING... HER CONCERT PIX. I DUN WANNA SEE LAH

will you miss me when i'm gone?

I'm not in love with myself... I'm with love with that hoodie T.T HEY LOOK AT THE VANDALISM ON MY DOOR. I wrote that longlong time ago... Only because my cousin was staying here and i was damn pissed at her so i wrote "Trespassers will be executed especially *** *** ****" The stars are actually her name... heee.

Sorry bloggy... I abandoned you for like 2 days. Not much happening. SO... Tomorrow or rather later when i wake up, my mum wants me to paint the empty room for people to like rent. Then i needa buy baking equipments so that i can bake my six layered cake. Heh. Excited. Not really tho... But okay.

New love.

Hello peepo. Finally a decent post about a proper day i had. HAHA. Jasmin finally left the house. Okay anyways. GHIM MOH TREATED ME AND RAGAM TO A JAP RESTAURANT! The restaurant she works at to be exact... But this one is at Bugis and she works at Orchard... She very supportive eh HAHA.

I was whipping mah hair.

I had a mouth full of sushi... Couldn't swallow it cuz i was so damn full...

I was checking if can see my tummy anot LOL

IRON MANNNN. LOL

Total bill of the dayyy! Actually this one just show the items... Pricing not here. The price was like 98 bucks? Ghim die also wanted to eat until 100. Then the people working there knew her and they was like "Stop ordering la! Later you eat until cannot walk out of here" LMFAO. Seriously tho. BUT I LOVE THE UDON. SERIOUSLY. LOVE LOVE LOVE. So going back there. Next time we're going dutch tho. No more treat HAHA.

Anyways... Now planning to go out next next week. Cause i'm going to be broke for this 2 weeks. Sad. LOL. NO WAIT. Next week i wanna watch 127 HOURS!!!!! Next next week we wanna go to SENTOSA and after that SEOUL GARDEN. We should go to kbox some other time too...

My heart skips a beat everytime i see my phone wallpaper... It's so weird... I know it's a picture of my wifey and i saw it so many times liao but... Ahhhhh. I love you wifey. You make me smileeee~

blogging about wifey while listening to her sing is gooood

MY BABY IS AN ANGEL. Like duh. No seriously. Check out those wingszxc. PRETTY. I love you :3 Okay what can i say about the Grammys? Justin Bieber lost to some woman call... honestly i can't even remember her name. I mean like i'm not the only one k. Then the most anticipated award ALBUM OF THE YEAR. Some band call Arcade Fire won? LIKE WHO THE HELL ARE YOU GUYS. KATY PERRY, EMINEM AND EVEN LADY GAGA AND IDK WHO ELSE LOST TO THAT WHO?! Bullshit. Nevermind. Katy Perry won every single award in my book!!!! Yeah. Even like what favourite country artist. MY WIFEY!!!!!! k stop.

Her performance was AWESOME. She sang Not Like The Movies and showed us abit of her wedding at the back. I CRIED. Some of the other katycats had butterflies in their stomach too and stuff like that. Cause it's like... First time we saw it neh. Heh. And of course TEENAGE DREAM. CUZ YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I'M LIVING A TEENAGE DREAM!! The way you turn me on, i can't sleep :3 Lol actually i slept like a piggy in the afternoon. K.

I have alot of anger and sadness inside me. Underneath all the LOVE FOR KATY PERRY. YEAH. Oh and my mum FINALLY isn't like totally against me and wifey. Cause i woke up at like 8am today to watch the Grammys mah. I went downstairs to the bus stop with her cuz she going to work then she's like "If only every morning have your katy katy de show then you can wake up early every morning eh" LOL. Heh :3 It's supernatural~ Extra terrestrial~

Oh p.s. I put the song "How Do You Sleep" as my alarm tone. HAHAHAHA. So when i'm sleeping Jesse Mccartney is like HOW DO YOU, HOW DO YOU SLEEP?! I sleep with my wifey beside me! Tons of her. Her posters on the wall T.T AND MY BEARBEAR. Awww. My mum forever wanna wash you ): Cannottt lar.. I like it better when you smell like whatever you are right now! :3

Story

Do you need all the things you own?

Are you pleased with the way things are?

Wear that dress to protect this scar,

That only I have seen.

Do you give just to please yourself?

Do you wish you were somewhere else?

Justified all the things you tried,

said that it was all for me.

And be near,

Just for the moment,

Stay here,

Never go home.

Did you know that everything she ever does is for you?

So it goes, the story of a broken heart comes true,

It comes true.

Have you learnt all the secrets yet?

Were you burn by the things I've said?

Took the dive just to feel alive,

but never heard the truth.

Now I'm in love but I don't know how

I'm in pain cause I want it now

As I sit watching her eyes close,

I slowly open mine.

I am so confused by this.

I know that life is hit or miss.

Days are stung by too much sun,

I think that you may be the one.

Cover yourself up in me,

Shrouded in what could have been.

I will listen to your pain,

if you listen to me.

-Maroon 5

:3 pretty wifey is pretty

HALO. Just came back from some open house thing with my mum and i recieved a very... weird? compliment? The guy literally said "Your daughter very pretty, i wanna order her." WHAT?! ORDER?! I think he sorta means wanna BOOK ME BUT I AM NOT A PRODUCT LOL. Thanks but... My god... I seriously seriously don't think that i'm pretty. At most i'm just adorable HAHAHAHA. To me, being pretty is looking like this:

BAM. So if i have ever called you pretty or beautiful or whatever, BE VERY EXTREMELY FLATTERED. You are close to or just like Katy Perry =X It's a good thing. It's a fantastic thing! LOL. K. BYE

OHOHOH AND MONDAY 9AM GRAMMMYSSSSSS YESYESYES

Ohhhh and... why are people suddenly against me? Like. I am going to ite. Period. I am not retaking. I am not choosing any other things. I took early childhood education. There's no going back now. Apparently it's wrong for me to plan ahead too. Fine. I shall just... be like how i have always been. Just not think about anything and just.... you know. Zou yi bu suan yi bu. I have no idea what's that in english. LOL. k done.

not as good as hotcakes tho

TODAY I MADE PANCAKESSSS. It was okay. I cooked too much again. I DIDN'T READ THE THINGY ON THE TOP AND THE AMOUNT WAS FOR 10-12 PANCAKES. Goodness. The first few and the last few were the good ones! The ones in the middle were burnt. Pan too hot :/ Note to self! Filter the flour thingy before mixing cause got alot of lumps... TRY ADDING WHIP CREAM. K. The end.

~.~

OMG IT WORKED. IT ACTUALLY WORKED AGAIN! But the thing is, i was like KATY PERRY KATY PERRY but Adam Levine appear :o Nvm, BUT OMG IT ACTUALLY WORKS!!!!!! Don't remember much of the dream tho... But it's so awesomeeeeeeee

In other news... I keep on dreaming of avalanches leh. But you know usually the avalanche is go down one but mine is from down go up one. What? Scary tho. Alot of times liao leh... "To see an avalanche in your dream, signifies your raging emotions which have been held back and repressed for a long time. These emotions have not been dealt with in a productive manner and now are being expressed in a sudden and violent anger."

Stratusfaction!!!!!!

The best female wrestler ever. Trish Stratus!!!!! She quit in 2006 tho... SAD ): SHE WON 7 WOMEN'S CHAMPIONSHIP YO. She was the only reason i watched wrestling and the only reason why i bought wrestling cards. It was really difficult finding decently clothed pictures of her tho. LOL. I mean i had to scrolls through tons of pictures of her in like bikinis to find this one. Ahhh. I love pictures of her with her championship belt. So proud of her T.T You were the best wrestler, you ARE the best wrestler and you will forever be the best wrestler... to me :D

I'm only mentioning this because i just finished playing wrestling with my brother on the ps2... LOL. The ps2 has been around for like 7 years already sia! The game was hilarious tho. Mostly consist of me running around, up and down the stage and screaming -.- BUT IN THE END I WON THO. Miracles. Hehheh.

i ain't mad, i just think it's fucked up

Obviously isn't mine but hey!! I learned it from the website so mine should look something like that. LOL. Forgot to take a picture before i ate it. Sad. I would say it's okay... I always cook too much one lor. FOREVER HAVE LEFTOVERS. Later need to wash dishes. Urgh. And when i put the butter in the pan, it splattered like everywhere and now i have to wipe. Grr.

Operation "Lucid Dream" has failed. I did dream tho. I dreamt that i was googling for Lady Gaga. WHAT?! Maybe cause i was super angry and sad before i slept... I was freaking crying. Totally forget to tell myself to CONTROL MY DREAM. Fail fail fail. I'm not giving upppp

You know like... you see something someone wrote, you do your best to make it happen but in the end, the person is still not satisfied. I finally realised why!! CAUSE I'M NOT THE PERSON IT'S TARGETED TO. You know? Okayokayokay. I won't bug you no more.

forever alone

PARTAYYYYYYY!!!!!! on my own... in my room.... alone...

Anyways, i read online about methods that you can like control your dreams. I controlled it before a few times... Mostly like nightmares? I forced myself to wake up but in good dreams, i only did it like once and honestly speaking, it was pretty damn amazing. I don't remember what i did but seriously, it was amazing. I could do whatever the crap i want. I'mma go try the method later and hopefully i'll dream and hopefully... katy perryyyyyyyyyyyy

Okay so i just saw a video of Justin Bieber surprising his fan... He totally went into her house... And the gurl was like talkingtalking to the camera then someone knock on her room door. She's like "Is it my mum again?" BUT NO IT WAS JUSTIN FREAKING BIEBER. I would shit my pants if that happened to me... But of course, it would be KATY PERRY instead of Justin... After that she was invited to ellen and justin bieber let her sit on his lap... Goodnesssssssss. Lucky lucky gurl. Sadly for me, all these can only happen in my imagination... Oh well...

truly yours, your biggest fan

The morning rain clouds up my window

And I can't see at all

And even if I could it'd all be gray

But your picture on my wall

It reminds me, that it's not so bad

It's not so bad...

probably shouldn't write that but WHATEVER!!

Eh. I just realise there's more pictures of me at the old folks home. Never tag me. Idk lehh. Now i know. LOL. So... here you go.

See. Good gurl. I don't look fat if you look at me from the back. Or do i? LOL. My mum says i look pretty, FROM THE SIDE. I am so hurt. Not really. Whatever. This is my face. I know i know. Get rid of my eyebags and eye circle then will be pretty from the front. Urgh, my mum just can't accept me for who i am. Seriously.

Moving on to someone who does like me for me, MY BROTHER. Actually he also think that my dark eye circle is bad too but when i told him to don't talk about it, he stops k. Not like my mum -.- K I LOVE YOU KENNY GOH. Stop making fun of my watermelons you perv.

I SEE YOU DRIVING AROUND TOWN WITH THE GURL I LOVE AND I'M LIKE FUCK YOU. So in love with da song. Not the original one tho... The one from Glee nicer xp

Now i'm super afraid of being alone thanks to THE WALKING DEAD. Wahlau. Like when i was going home just now after i ate, when i was opening the door. The area was quiet cuz no one mah. I STARTED PANICKING CUZ I IMAGINED ZOMBIES TO BE CHASING ME FROM BEHIND -.- Stupid stupid stupid. Then when i was sleeping, whenever i close my eyes, i image zombies coming to grab my hand suddenly and start eating me or something... SIAN LEH. I know i keep telling myself NO SUCH THING LA YOU IDIOT but im still scared. How? This morning i almost shit my pants when my mum came in... She suddenly came and touch me and i literally jumped up. I thought she was a zombie T.T

I can't stop watching the episode of how i met your mother with katy perry in it T.T WHY SHE SO CUTE. "You just wanna wrap her up in a blanket and give her a cup of tea. She's like this lost lamb who needs to be protected from the wolves..." HER CHARACTER IN THE SHOW IS DAMN GULLIBLE AND BELIEVES ANYTHING ANYOEN TELLS HER LOL. ahhh lovelovelove

and then this happened and that you know?

I'm sorry. Did i scare you? HAHA. PONTIANAK YO. Don't kill me please. Heh. Okay soooo. Went to sockghim house.... Blahblahblah

Her new hamster blahblahblah. SO POOR THING. In that small little cage.

And then this and that this and that

very hard to take picture of her cuz she keep covering and LOOK ITS MIINWEI. Ghim's dad killed some of her family members. So shad. Nvm, there's TONS of them all over the world. She doesn't have to worry. Slept over. Sockghim is evil. Then the next day i felt damn sick. Now i'm okay. So bored. 127 hours anyone?

oh honey~

Am currently watching HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER!! Only the episode with Katy Perry... Gawdddddd why are you so sexy T.T

I am seriously dying everytime she comes up... Gaaaaahhhhh laskdjadlkj;sldjlakjd i cannot...

-pats my own head-

HEYYYY. GUESS WHAT. I'm not so scared anymore. It's 3:55am right now and i'm watching THE WALKING DEAD!! WITH THE SOUND ON BABEY. Hahahahahahaha. One more episode to go than finish liaw. Yayyyyy. Sianzxc, needa go back to the clinic pssh. At least the place closes at 5pm. Heh. I CAN SLEEPZXC.

random

Suddenly remembered my wifey say something about this dress... She was going to play the guitar but the dices was blocking her and she felt like a retard. Hahhhh. Wae u so cute!!! There's someone hand on her hips omgomgomgomgomgomg get ur hands off her x.x LOL. Can see her hour glass figure. Weewuweet. Wifey is the best k. Hahaha

i have no concept of consequences

Eh. So... I went to Malaysia for CNY!! No pictures uh. Not with me. Went to old folks home cuz my mum they all donate stuff. Go give them oranges and stuff. SO SAD T.T Then went to like kbox at night. All i can say is... HORRIBLE. I completely forget that the Teenage Dream video is effing wrong. My aunt and mum saw it.... They're like "WAHHH OMG" very shock kind. Tsk. I can never show my face ever again. Don't wanna write too much. The whole thing is okay la. Wouldn't say its OMG SO AWESOME. It's just... meh. The internet is currently being a bitch... Gonna go play xbox lorh... GRR. Must go friend's house take more angbao... Cause my mum kept all my relatives one T.T

Wrap yourself around me like a warm glove~ The emptiness leaves me and i'll never have to go back to the way i was~ The way i was~

BY DA WAY. Something horrible happened this afternoon when i woke up... I dreamt that i was peeing. Then i quickly jumped up and well... I wet my pants. -facepalms- THANK GOD ABIT ONLY SIA. I jumped out of bed and ran to the toilet. and thank god my pajamas was like waterproof so my bed never kena (Y) Good job Jasmin.

i haz book

This is me.

This is me awkwardly posing for the camera. Speaking of being awkward, i'm socially awkward too. I speak without thinking. I talk way too much sometimes. I try really hard to make people laugh. I try really hard to impress people. I try to be the best that i can. Apparently, i can't. I sweat too much. I swear too much. I become irritating and mean when i'm extremely bored. I never mean to hurt anyone with my words. I have incredibly low self esteem and confidence. I'm lazy as hell. I always tend to leave a mess and people have to clean it up for me. I forget important things easily but i remember tons of useless informations. I spend money i don't have. I have a very short attention span. I trust people way too easily. I have my own mature way of seeing the world. You can disagree with me. I am because i don't have any prejudice against anyone or stuff. I don't think that gays are weird and stuff like that if you know what i mean...

I hate wearing skirts. I love wearing jeans or just pants in general. I love wearing T-shirts. I adore Converse shoes. I'm fat. I have a horrible case of dark eye circle and eyebags. My right leg is fucked up. I have 6 scars on it. I have 1 scar on my forehead. My hair is half curly and half straight. What you're seeing in the picture is nice rebonded and tied up hair. Not it's original horrible form.


To you, why are you so insensitive? It's like, you don't have feelings. I don't mean to be mean but seriously... You are constantly criticizing me. Me, on the other hand is always complimenting you but you don't appreciate them at all. You just throw them right back at me. You criticized my favourite shirt. No wait, you criticize almost every shirt i wear. Can't you just let me wear my fucking tshirt in peace? You're just like my mum. Both of you are the only people who say that i've gained weight. Mum, can you please spare a thought for me? Why are you always helping other people? He was making fun of me and i can't be angry about it? It's like, i'm an injured person and the person just come and continue hurting me even more. I can't get angry? Please. I'm a human being too. I'm not as strong as i look.

You think i'm a pure and innocent gurl. Maybe not so much after you saw the Katy Perry videos. You think that i have never had a boyfriend. You think i'm straight. You think i'm kidding when i tell you about my possible syndromes. I'm not. The Alice In Wonderland Syndrome is scary. You don't know how it feels like to have your perception of things messed up.

I can go on forever but my brain is tired and i have to pee... In conclusion, i'm just a horrible person. At least to me i am. I try tho. At least i'm being... myself i guess. I'm not trying hard to be anyone. Not even Katy Perry. I mean seriously. Katy Perry is purfect. I'm not gonna try and be that. I'll leave it to her. Effortlessly beautiful. Heh. I feel relieved idk why. K BYE

Katy says it's better than here

This sensation's overwhelming. Give me a long kiss goodnight and everything will be alright. Tell me Katy, that i won't feel a thing. Give me Novocaine.

i wanna be next to you

Supppppppp!!!!!! I have been cleaning and cleaning. Not really cleaning... Just tidying my own stuff. Rearranged my table, my cupboard with all the KP stuff and my shelves and shitzxc... I'm such a good gurl right. HAHA. Spend 4 hours doing all those sia. Somemore it was at 12am to 4am. Tharshini is proud of me right!! HAHAHA. Anyways, IT'S CHINESE NEW YEAR. Or is it Chinese New Year Eve? I don't know la. Need to go my grandma house where everyone will be there. "EH YOUR EXAM HOW AH?" "GO WHAT POLY?" "EH! YOU BECOME FAT LIAO LEH"

Anyways, after that i'm leaving!!!!!!!!! to malaysia -.- MORE RELATIVES. 3 days 2 night. No Katy Perry, no computer, no internet, no friends and no nothing. LIKE CAMP LIDDAT. Except that camp is FUN. This is not. Tskkk. God have mercy on my soul. So... I'll probably only update when i come home lohh.

I wanna watch The Walking Dead but i'm too scared... I'm like watching it at MUTE AGAIN. Sianzx. I'll just try and find the comic bah... GOODBAIZX

i fucking miss you