Extremely depressed right now... My computer is dying T.T Please don't... I have never done anything bad to you... WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? Everything i love is leaving meeeeee. Please don't go T.T Just now i had a sudden thought like what would i do if fatty died and i started crying. TOUCHWOOD LA. Butbutbubtut my computer T.T Nvm, save all my Katy Perry pictures first :3 If i freaking lose those, i. will. bloody. go. freaking. insane. It's safe... I hope. Well. I wanna end on this... Dearest beloved computer, I NEED YOU. I NEED YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE. Okay not more than wifey but I NEED YOUUU. Without you, i'll die... I'll die of boredom... Stay strong, my love. I'm here for you everyday. I always have been and will forever be here...

got nothing against you and surely i'll miss you~~

HI. Today has been okay. The medical examination was okay larh. I don't know. NOBODY TOLD ME THERE WAS GONNA BE A BLOOD TEST. I went into the first room and someone was getting their blood taken. I'm like looking at it with the O.O face. In my mind i'm like

So the lady first poked the needle into my left arm but she couldn't get the blood out cuz my vein too small... So she changed to my right arm. OUCH!! It still hurts now. AT LEAST I DIDN'T CRY LOL. Actually i never cried when taking any injections before leh. Primary 1, primary 5 and sec 3 injection for mac. I DIDN'T EVEN SHED A TEAR. Me so brave. -pats my own head-

The xray was just awkward. I had to change into this robe? Plus i had to bun my hair up. I look like some Japanese auntie. Then had to lean on this board thing? While standing. Press the front part of your body against it. LOL. Or something like that. Furthermore i had to hold onto some thingy on my butt?! WAIT. This sounds wrong. Hard to explain like that. Nvm. IT'S OVERR

After this and that lastly go to this doctor. Like normal consultation... THE DOCTOR SO CUTE HAVE ANOTT. I told him about my leg and he's like ohh. That's pretty serious :o Then the way he say things is way nicer. Doctors don't say YOU ARE FAT. They say "You are slightly overweight." I'M NOT EVEN SEVERELY OVERWEIGHT. I'M SLIGHTLY. Cuz the BMI i should have is like 23. Mine is 24. ABIT ONLYY. He makes me feel way better -.- After that he told me that i must remember like every month de dates for my period. He said "Cause IF, IF ah one day you pregnant, you must realise it! Don't be so stupid like other gurls who are pregnant for 5 months and they don't even know it" LOL. K then i lefttttt.

Went to meet YATI. She go find job. Saw viknesh working. SO FUNNY. OH AND HARRIS GOT SELL CYANIDE AND HAPPINESS. 25 BUCKS. I LOVE YOU HARRIS T.T I'MMA BUY YOU NEXT WEEEEK. It's cold. Thank god they injected my right hand tho... If not if put left hand i can't play guitar hero :o Anyways, here is a gif of wifey for you. LOL

my baby is awesome k.

not looking forward

Saw something someone wrote on tumblr and i kinda agree with it... Katy is so... unreachable and not relatable now. As in... You know last she used to have a tumblr too. She used to blog and vlog like us. She was one of us!! But now, she's so famous and all she does is tweet. Her tweets are mostly like her work related and things like that. AND ALSO. Her concert tickets are almost IMPOSSIBLE to get now. It's sold out in like minutes after it's released and there are people reselling it for like hundreds of bucks... I want the old wifey back too... Still love her now tho... It's just that.... :/


ANYWAYSSSS. Operation Starvation has begun. I'm probably not gonna make it thru tho. STOP CALLING ME FAT. I KNOW OKAY. I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW. Now i'm gonna not eat and exercise. You guys happy?! Irritating. IT's ME WHAT. IT'S MY FREAKING BODY. WHY CAN'T YOU GUYS JUST KEEP YOUR GOD DAMN MOUTH SHUT. MAKE ME FEEL FUCKING SELF CONSCIOUS. So if a person used to be okay, if they suddenly gain weight everyone will be talking but if a person was fat, and the person gain weight, nobody gives a shit. Somemore this is the time of the year i need to visit relatives. THE ONE TIME I'M FAT IS THE ONE TIME I'M SEEING SO MANY PEOPLE. URGH. -facepalms- Someone please just fucking kill me

Everything's changing. I'm not sure of anything anymore. I don't know anyone anymore... I don't know who's with me anymore...


My mum suddenly told me something just now... She was like "If the other person doesn't like you, why do you bother doing so much for them? They will never appreciate it. If they don't like you and already have someone else, they will never ever like you. You can waste your time and your everything doing the most amazing things for the person but they will never see it. They will never appreciate it. They only want that other person to do it for them. Why be so stupid and waste your time right?" LOL. Random mum is random. I agree tho. Sigh.


I BLOODY HATE CHINESE NEW YEARRRRRRR

bam

Today i decided to try the expert on Guitar Hero!! This is what i got.

I'm gonna cry T.T But i chose an easy song tho. First time mah. I tried playing some other hard songs and i can seriously die. MY FINGERS HURT YO. Anyways... Mattstarz... is my xbox profile name... I can tell you the origin of the name!! I like the name Matthew and i like rockstars. So... Matthew + Rockstar = MATTSTARz. LAME MUCHHH. k.

I feel so unappreciated... Like nothing i do is ever enough. GAVE YOU ALL I HAD AND YOU TOSSED IT IN THE TRASH, TOSSED IT IN THE TRASH YOU DID. TO GIVE ME ALL YOUR LOVE WAS ALL I EVER ASKED CUZ WHAT YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND IS I'D CATCH A GRENADE FOR YOU. Refering to 2 people here... DON'T WORRY KOKO. Not you. LOL. Sighhhhh. At the end of the day, i get nothing. No wait. I get something from one of you. I GET FREAKING SCOLDED. No la. Not scolded but you got pissed off at me. Then the next day you just pretended like nothing ever happened. Tsk. Anyways, so now i'm not going to do anything anymore. It's not like you need it anyways. Pssh.

I ate 3 packets of gummy bears in a day. TAKE THAT.

I could fake it

I could break it till it hurts

I could take whatever words you say

Pretend I never heard

LOL JK i can't T.T If only i could tho... Love the song anyways.

4:55 am. Goodnight. Or should i say good morning? I love you wifey

I got bored and googled brown eyes and pictures of Katy Perry with brown eyes came up. LOL. I didn't even type in KATY PERRY. She's stalking me :3

baby gurl~

Why is there a picture of Katy Perry sitting, you ask? Lol you didn't ask BUT I'M GONNA TELL YOU WHY. Cause i dreamt that i was sitting beside her T.T The bad thing is I CANNOT REMEMBER THE DREAM. T.T Whyyyy. It's bad enough we can't record and watch our dreams but now we can't even REMEMBER it?! I remember hugging her... Then i was sitting beside her watching a show? I'm pretty sure there's more other things but i can't remember... SAD LARH.

I feel so sick today... Woke up with a bloody fever. Sorry Hayati T.T Lay in bed all day listening to wifey sing Electric Feel~ Now i'm up and still feeling horrible. Flu. Stomach cramp. Backache. Oh and i diedie also must go the medical checkup by 1st Feb sia. If not they take away my ITE place. WTH SIA. This bloody period (no pun intended) better end faster!!!

OH P.S THE TV BEHIND HER IN THE PIC IS SHOWING TEENAGE DREAM!~ LOL. K that was a very useless piece of information. Buai

just asking

Um okay hi. I have a question. How much do you think i love you? I mean. Sock ghim says that you're too freaked out which is why you find it funny. Koko thinks that you think i'm kidding. Me? I don't know :/ All i know is that i am bloody crazy over you. Don't worry tho... I won't do anything like you know who LOL. I'll just sit here on my own. Kinda like my "relationship" with Katy Perry. I know it's never gonna happen but i'm not gonna let go. I can't let go. Okayy i should go nao bye

My heart stops when you look at me~

I fall in love everytime i listen to Teenage Dream. No wait... How should i phrase this... I feel so in love everytime i listen to Teenage Dream... It just makes me happy T.T I wanna sing it in your face yo!!!

why always like that oneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Yet again, i don't know what's going on. I mean... I woke up at 8am to accompany you to go SP, i bought you a double chocolate frappe. Then i accompany you to ION Orchard despite my stomach cramp that is killing me. In the end, you're pissed off with me? I don't even... Maybe i really did something wrong that i don't even realise. The only reason i'm writing it here instead of telling you face to face is because, i don't want to argue with you. Firstly is because i don't like arguing with my friends. It makes me sad. Secondly, no matter what it is, you always win. You can always turn it around and it'll all become my fault. So i'm just leaving this here. I really really really don't get you.

The reason why i'm excited.

Awesome box.

TA DA.

TA DAAA

TA DAAAA

BAMM!! Which shoelace nicer uh? Black or the red one? Koko say red. K red.

HAHAHAHAHA. I'm so happy right now. Not really right now but yeah. I'm happy. I'm in pain right now. Stomach cramp & back pain. Fucking period. Oh and the worst thing is, i have to go get some medical examination by 1st feb and there write need to do URINE TEST and there put if got menstraution cannot go. WAHLAU. JASDLKFJSDLKF SERIOUSLY... WHAT A GOOD TIMING MANZX -.- -facepalms- Now i'm seriously weakkkk as hell so i'mma go lie down on my bed and stare at the screen and stalk ppl on fb. I'mma come back later to post smthzx. Buaizx

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I am so bloody excited right now. GAHHH. I'M SOOOOOOOOO HAPPY. Tomorrow you'll know what's making me so happy. GAHHH I CAN'T BELIEVE ITT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay anyways. I had a dream that i was in jail AGAIN. Wait. This time not really in jail but it's in this place? I'm like locked inside? Then you were like sending me these books filled with things you wrote and i was crying while i was reading them. SO RANDOM. Then woke up at 6+ because of the damn message. Saw it and i was like "Heyyy, okayyyyyy" -falls back asleep- Woke up later at like 10am to sms people lohhh. Went back to sleep then woke up again later to PAINT THE TOILET. YESH. I'm done! So next time if you come my house, must go see the toilet cuz i painted it. HAHAHAHAHA. K lame. Then i folded the clothes while i was watching THE WALKING DEAD. All i can say is... I'm such a wuss T.T I was like so scared, i mute the tv when i feel like there's something bad approaching. -facepalms- The show is not bad tho.

No picture cuz i'm using my brother's com~ Hehhhhhhhhh. Omgg~~

katyperrylicious! XD

It's 2:53AM. I'mma go sleep earlier today because i'mma get disturbed at 8am. So i shall go cuddle with this amazing woman

in my dreams now. Goodbye :3

me want all

DAMN YOU CONVERSE FOR HAVING SUCH PRETTY SNEAKERS!!!!!! I WANT ALL OF YOUUU. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU T.T WAE U SO EXPENSIVE X.X

i saw alot of angmohhhhhhh

I have a feeling i have posted the picture in the previous post before but ITS OKAYY. I LOVE MY WIFEY IN JEANSSS. I love her in anythinggg. LOL. Kay. No pictures today so i shall post a picture of wifey.

I. love. those. shoes. or boots or whatever you wanna call it.

YAY. Hi. I'm tired. I slept late and woke up early for the past 3 days or something ARGH. Tomorrow have to wake up early AGAIN. Wednesday have to wake up early AGAIN. I just wanna sleep till 4pm T.T Today i went to ze hospital. Some doctor called me fat. LOL. Just before i'm gonna go put on a bloody swimsuit, you call me fat!!! Thanks alot~ Nah, i'm fine with it. Then this and that. SO TIRED.

I. WANT. THAT. SUPER. MAN. LIMITED. EDITION. SHOE. WAIT FOR ME. YOU STAY IN THAT SHOP. STAY THERE. I WILL FIND A JOB AND I WILL FUCKING GET YOU. Or maybe i'll ask my dad buy for me HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Ahhh

wifey werking it

You got my heart racing in your skin tight jeans~

oOooOOoooOo

I WANT. I'M GOING TO WORK. I AMMM. I'M GOING TO BUY THIS. I mean, whichever ones Singapore sells LOL. I'mma bring it around in my bag. I WILL OKAY. LOL

I saw them selling these big kind also. 100+ T.T Don't worry, i'll make sure i buy extras then can play with you guys LOL. Provided if you want to :/ Sorry -.- I'm still extremely childish. OO! And the bubble gun too! I didn't check how much was the small Nerf Gun :/ I only know the bubble one is only like 16 bucks. Heh.

J TO THE A TO THE S TO THE M TO THE I TO THE N!!

Lucky bitch.

Haven posted a picture of wifey in awhile. SO THERE YOU GOOO. She looks so cute T.T This was at facebook live. I'm proud to say, i was there. HEHHHEHEH. You know.... I was really sad just now because of the spilled drink but after i changed my call tone to Teenage Dream, i was cheered up idk why LOL. Ahhh. Then i listened to the song "Jasmin" which made me even happier. LOL. Thickskin sia. But oh well. Heh. It's nice to see the comments on the video on youtube cause most of the people who are commenting are either named Jasmin/Jasmine or they have a friend named Jasmin/Jasmine whho they think are awesome. Heh. Awesome.

I really wanna talk to you but i really have nothing to say T.T Sorry if i seem a little bit... i don't know. LOL nvm. BUUAI

i'm a happy kiddo

Halo. Today me go watch THE TOURIST! With koko, yati and viknesh. Viknesh asked me for a very long time liao... Now then go watch. AHAHAHA. It was okay la. Predicted the ending. The movie reminds me of salt -.- Wtf sia. Angelina Jolie is a undercover agent AGAIN? Urgh. Johnny Depp is cute tho. Went to eat laterrr. THE FOOD WAS HORRIBLE. Not horrible but it wasn't nice :/ This is why i prefer fast food restaurants haha!! THEN WENT TO TOYS R US OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. I'm so happy there T.T

If they let me play with their toys, i tell you. I WILL NEVER LEAVE THAT PLACE. My mum can throw me there while she goes shopping or whatever. I will entertain myself. HEHHEH. I want a nerf gun and the bubble gun D: Okay, i just spilled water on my phones which totally killed my mood. Lazy to say anything liao. CHECK OUT THE WALLET I MADE FOR MYSELF LOL. Made it in like 10 minutes cuz i needed to go out liao and i needed a wallet cuz mine is falling apart.

the inside!

and the outside. evil fat cat. I hate how some people die also don't want to believe that i made this myself. If you don't believe me, i will freaking do one live infront of you. Seriously. To you guys, am i really such an idiot? Do i really not know anything? Urgh nvm. LOL! K bye

standing there with nothing on, she's gonna teach me how to swim

Holy mother of god. I just bumped my head REALLY hard against the wall. I was like leaning against the wall then my brother came in and i wanted to do something really silly then i completely forget about the wall behind me and my head just went back. BAM. THERE WAS LITERALLY A LOUD BANG. Gawdddddd. Freaking hurts right now T.T Come and kiss my boo boo away :3

ANyways, went to school todays for this Miss Ang Farewell thang. Alot of balloon popped. I didn't do much there tho... LOL. Mostly sitting around. Oh well. PICTURES

abit dark cuz my flash wasn't on... Lazy to edit -.- LOL. BUT CAN YOU SEE THE SAD FACE O KOKO'S SHIRT?! LOL

A gurl's favourite place. THE TOILET. LOL!

Also very dark... Koko attempting to do Snooki's poof? LOL~

Me likey my shoeszx.

Drew it on my left wrist to present my love for Rodrick of DIARY OF A WIMPY KID. It's okay if you don't know what it is. I just wrote "Loded Diper" on my leg too! Shall post a picture next time. Gotta sleep now. Woke up early today and need to wake up early tomorrow also :/ I miss you and my head seriously still hurts T.T I feel like there's a dent on the back of my head? Holy crap. Or has my head always been like that? I don't know

Just in case i suddenly die from this head trauma, i'mma write down my last words. Yeah, cuz i'm paranoid like that. HAHAHA. I love you, you. I still do T.T And i'm afraid i will never stop... I'm sorry T.T I fucking love Katy Perry too! And thank you koko for being there for me! I love you fattyyy. You are the bestest pet ever. GOODBYE!

i'd rather waste my life pretending

I don't know why but everytime after i get a new phone, i like to take picture of myself with it LOL. SOmemore this is like the highest i got leh!! 5 megapixel zomg. So... if you miss my face, here you go!!!

poutpout

I also wanna use this chance to show off MY POSTERS LOLOL. I'm very proud of it k. So many wifey :3

normal face

My loveeeeeee.

Anyways... Just now i wanted to change my relationship on facebook to become with Ali Larter but i couldn't bear to cancel away my wifey T.T I even happily got the Ali Larter account but when i had to remove my current one... I COULDN'T DO ITT! NOOOO. I'm sorry Ali Larter, you are extremely hot and sexy as hellllllllllll but my wifey is hotter and sexier and i love her wayy more!! SHE'S IRREPLACEABLE. WEE. LOL. THAT WAS RATHER POINTLESS. 4AM NOW. Later needa go school...~ Gahh you ate my heart and my brain x.x I can't get over you T.T

i cant believe im posting this

Tharshini was testing the camera and BAM, there i am LOL. This reminds me of her phone call... "Where are you right now?" "I am on my friend's bed" WAIT WHAT?! LOL. SO WRONGG.

Fatty looks skinny here :3

Hannibal Jr aka Dobby lookalike. I am aware that the cage is extremely dirty... I'll get to it someday.

My mum was testing the camera this time. OF ALL THINGS, MUST YOU TAKE A PICTURE OF ME LIDDAT LOL. Dusty fan. Messy table. I look like i'm not wearing pants. Pikachu blanket. Bearbear!!!!!!!!!!!

i don't even...

I want the old you back. LOL. Jk. I don't even know what's the old you like... I don't know anything anymore :/ I just... I don't like what's going on right now. Like now, it's so difficult to talk to you. I tell you that i finally gotten my Green Day Rockband it's not because i'm showing off. I'm telling you because i just thought that you would want to play it since you like Green Day too and cause you're my friend. Seems like everything i try and tell you or something, it's all bad intentions to you? I don't even know... It's like you're being so hostile towards me. Argh.

Stutter - Maroon 5 ♥

This time i really need to do things right

Shivers that you give me keep me freezing all night

You make me shudder

I can't believe it, I'm not myself.

Suddenly I'm thinking about no one else.

You make me shudder.

I really, I really need to know.

Or else you gotta let me go.

You're just a fantasy girl.

It's an impossible world.

All I want is to be with you always.

I'll give you everything,

Pay some attention to me.

All I want is just you and me always;

Give me affection.

I need your perfection.

Cause you feel so good you make me stutter

If I could touch you I'd never let go.

Now you got me screaming and I cannot shut up.

Now I'm lying on the bedroom floor,

Barely even speaking and I can not get up.

You knock me down, I can't get up, I'm stuck.

Gotta stop shaking me up.

I can't eat, can't sleep, can't think, sinking under.

I'm sinking under.

Cause you feel so good you make me stutter.

extremely bored.

I FOUND THIS! LOL. Note that the date is 2006. LOL! heh. Just in case you don';t know who this is, this is the guy who wrote Mr Midnight. If you STILL don't know who he is or what is Mr Midnight, you should go bang the wall. LOL

I ADDED 2 SELENA GOMEZ POSTERSSSS!! Had them for a very long time but didn;t have the chance to put it... So... HERE THEY GO. And got class photo also. LOL. My wall feels so full nao :3 I NEED MOAR.

Sooo. I have been really bored so i'm like. Wasting paper. HAHA. No la. IM USING THOSE ROUGH PAPER K! Like one side got words only one. Heh. Messed around and made this

Suppose to be a Peacock HAHA. FAIL MUCH LOL. The head is adjustable tho. Can make it longer and shorter :3

AND MY BOX OF NINJA STARS IN A HANDMADE BOX! The box is actually a pamplet booklet thingy from the navy. I made a box outta it :3 And LOOK! MCDONALD CHILLI. LOL. I should really stop wasting money on mcdelivery... I MEAN. IT'S ONLY TUESDAY AND HALF OF MY POCKET MONEY GONE LMFAO. Urghhh. Get your lazy ass down to the market and buy something to eat!!!!!

I suddenly feel very dizzy x.x Ahhh. Dying

bloody effing adorable T.T

I just died. ISN'T THIS LIKE THE MOST FUCKING ADORABLE THING EVAAR? OH GOODNESSSSSSSSS. I'M FREAKING EXPLOADING FROM THE CUTENESS. WHY MUST YOU BE SO DARN ADORABLE UNFFFFFF This is a harp seal btw... My bearbear is a harp seal too :3 I find it annoying when people say "It's not a bear, it's a seal." I KNOW THAT. Bearbear is a NAME for it. Then what? There are people named like Jasmine but they're not a flower right? Pssh. Gahhh. Harp seals... Loveeeeee

Anyways! My brother has been really nice to be after the incident. I mean not like he was mean to be before but now is extra extra good. Like previously when i hug him he will ask me to go away but now he got hug me back leh. LOL. Or maybe it's cuz he's abit emo nowadays :/ It's okay. We are seriously so alike!! People don't take the things he say seriously too. I can totally relate to that. Don't worry! I AM HERE. You are ze bestest brother evar :3

P.S I'm totally going crazy from making the paper ninja stars otherwise known as SHURIKENS! I've done 8 now. So tired x.x I'm probably obsessed with it cause i saw someone making it in primary school and i was soooo impressed... Now that i know how to make it... I CAN'T STOP!! Or maybe it's cuz i wanna throw at people.. Eh heh heh

Dearest wifey,

I didn't know it was possible but I'm falling more and more in love with you every single day...

KPsquare :3

New Katy Perry poster makes Kitty Purry happy. Gonna get salmon later with koko makes Kitty Purry happy too :3 Kitty Purry is slowly beginning to get over you :3 This year will be a good year for Kitty Purry. Kitty Purry feels happy right now :3

heh. Love love love. Wifeyyyy

it's meant to be T.T

In case you can't see the caption, it says "*ONLY in issue 116. ONE poster PER COPY of hot magazine only." And this is a very old magazine. January 2009. Where did i found it? In the hair salon!!!! So... There's a chance i'll get Jason Mraz, Rihanna or KATY PERRY. WHO DID I GET? OF COURSE KATY PERRY LUH. IF NOT WHY WOULD I POST THIS AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. WHAT ARE THE CHANCES? Out of all magazines, they picked this. This with the KATY PERRY POSTER. They didn't throw it away. It's been there for like 2 freaking years. Out of all the seats, i sat at the last seat. The chair was broken but i still sat there. Oh gosh... This is too awesome for me to take... AWESOME POSTER. I have to rearrange my wall liao. Too much stuff. Wahahhahaha. I do believe in fate T.T I do i do i do. My heart skipped a beat when i saw this cover.. Than i flipped open to the poste.r.. HEART ATTACK MANZX.

Anyways... I was at the hair salon to dye my hair. I WANT ORANGE LEH. But cannot... Now it's like abit of brown. CAN BARELY SEE IT. DAMN. Somemore my hair is like, the colour not easy to get on... Fml!

My baby ♥

i fell deep and you let me drown

Pretty. I want those vampire teeth!

I'm feeling better today. I don't know why. I think it's partially because of my Fatty :3 Urgh he so cute lar. I gave him a new addition to his house! A toilet roll tube thingy! LOL. He keeps on chewing on it and squeezing into it. He looks like he's gonna get suck... I'mma custom make one bigger one for him :3 Since those fancy hamster thingys are so expensive, i'mma make some myself for him :3 HEH. I'm being totally biased -.- My other 2 hamsters are smelly like hell and i can't be bothered... I'm so sorryyy.

I figured out why the earpiece didn't sound as good! Because i didn't put it properly into my ear. LOL. I changed the front thingy and now it's more into my ear and thus, the music sounds even more awesome. Now look at me, this is the part of me that you're never gonna ever take away from me. YOU ARE NOT GOING TO BREAK MY SOUL. Because it's already broken...

life is rollercoaster? lol

I just feel extremely... hopeless... and crushed... and... disgusted... and just traumatized... It's like... I dont know... Everything is just horrible now... Thank you koko... We spend so much time actually choosing courses but in the end i can't even enter it into the fucking system. I actually had so much hope... Now there's nothing... To make things even worst, i just went through a horrifying event... Why... Why me? What did i ever do? Why are you screwing me over like that? Black black, black and blue, beat me till i'm numb. Like the guy in easy a said... We can all fantasize about how good the future may be but this is today and it sucks. I can't even sleep now cuz i'm scared... Please... Just let me close my eyes... Let me fall asleep... Let me enter my dreamland... Let me be with Katy Perry even if it's just in my dream... Let me sleep forever...

take me away to better days...

"My secret?

If suicide was painless, I'd already be dead."

-sixbillionsecrets.com

You know what? Just as i thought everything was turning around, this kind of thing has to happen. This is actually something very traumatising... Why must it happen to me... WHY MANZX. GOD, WHY MUST YOU FUCK WITH ME LIKE THIS. I escaped from one thing but another worst thing happened to me. It's like that lady who survived cancer but got crushed to death by the falling woman. FUCK MY LIFE T.T

I need someone to talk to... I need to tell someone else... I told Tharshini already but now she's not online... I can't talk to her... Is anyone there...? This is just gonna scar me for life...

And mum, i bet you wouldn't be like that if you knew what happen. If only you knew why am i easily irritated right now. If only you fucking knew.

Bug saga

So... Me and my brother just got chased out of the room by a huge ass bee. LOL. It was so hilarious... We kept on waiting for it to leave but it just wouldn't. So in the end we quickly grab all our pillows and stuff and just got the hell out of that place. EVEN MY BROTHER WAS SCARED LOL. It was hilarious... After that i forget to take my earpiece and i went back... GUESS WHAT. There was a moth too -.- In my mind i was wondering "No beetle? LOL" Thanks to my itchy mouth, there's now a beetle in the living room -.- Fantastic.

I have come to a conclusion that everything isn't THAT bad LOLOL. I mean... I'm just kinda disappointed in my maths -.- OHWELL. IT'S OVER! Heh.

HNGGGGGGGGGGGG. I seriously really extremely love this dress... I mean just look... Oh god i can't... This is too much x.x

Ahhhhhhh. You find it funny... LOL. It's okay i guess :/ At least you're not like freaked out or anything... I still love you T.T

This few days has been really... I don't know. Surreal? LOL. I guess my results are OKAY?! I mean... I got a B3 for english! Ms Linda, i have not failed you. LOL. I passed my CS even tho it's just borderline? Even tho i still fail my science, i improved? I guess it could have been worst but hey! It's not LOL. Look on the bright side eh! Furthermore if really cannot go RP, the early childhood education doesn't seem that bad! I mean, its in ITE but poly got provide the course too!

I'm sorry to my Katy Perry posters T.T All of them look as if like i raped them. I DIDN'T. Some of them fell and i accidently like crushed it and some of them has like scratches or something. I'm sorry T.T

I'm not hiding anything anymore i guess. BUT IT DOESN'T FEEL ANY DIFFERENT. What the hell have i been worrying about? Nothing? It's kinda weird now tho. Maybe to me -.- It's always me me me me me me. Ahh. NEW EARPIECE. Even tho your sound quality isn't great, i'll be gentle with you this time. Heh

it's wednesday already? wow...

My baby ♥

Is it just mine or is facebook really having some problems? Account temporarily unavailable... Meh. Got a call from my mum, she suddenly want me to go IMM to eat with her o.o SHE DISTURBED ME FROM MY BEAUTY SLEEP. RAWRRRRRRRRRR. Argh. It's 4:56 now. I should really go prepareee. Australia is having those floods right? I'm actually kinda worried for that because THEY'RE ANGMOHS HAHAHA. And i like their accent... TAKE CARE GUYS. I'll be praying for you...

P.S Apparently, chiali still stalks my blog. AHAHAHA. HELLO LION. Ooppps =X WO AI TAI MEI. LMFAO. HAHAHA

I'm Still Breathing

I leave the gas on, walk the alleys in the dark

Sleep with candles burning, I leave the door unlocked

I'm weaving a rope and running all the red lights

Did I get your attention? 'Cause I'm sending all the signs

That the clock is ticking and I'll be giving my two weeks

Pick your favorite shade of black you'd best prepare a speech

Say something funny, say something sweet

But don't say that you loved me

I'm still breathing

But we've been dead for a while

This sickness has no cure, we're going down for sure

Already lost our grip, best abandon ship

Maybe I was too pale, maybe I was too fat

Maybe you had better, better luck in the sack

No formal education, I swore way too much

I swear you didn't care 'cause we were in love

So as I write this letter and shed my last tear

Know it's all for the better that we end this here

Let's close this chapter, say one last prayer

But don't say that you loved me

Omg wifey why must you make cry T.T Is anyone actually listening? I'm not posting these lyrics here for fun. I'm posting because it says out how i'm feeling. Do you understand the first 2 paragraphs of this lyric? I guess people just scroll through them. lol. i should really stop listening to her sad songs... listen to MILK MILK LEMONADE. I know you're thirsty baby standing in the heat, then the rest of the lyrics is pretty much very extremely wrongg. Oh god how i love you...

i should just die

I guess this picture is appropriate right now. Not really since she's crying from happiness or whatever. Not sadness. I would never wanna see you cry. If i could i would make sure nobody ever makes you sad. I would hold you in my arms. I would love you forever. I will be there for you. but... what about me?

Well. I had it coming i suppose. No use crying over it. I was perfectly fine. I was still saying to people who are sad like "Hey, if you think you're bad, look at mine! :D" But seriously... WHY ARE YOU SAD. YOU GOT THE COURSE YOU WANTED RIGHT? Don't complain... I'm right here. I have feelings. I might show it out but i can still feel. I came home and told my mum and she was like "Study express until go to ite?" Yah. THanks for that reminder. I actually did try this time okay. I actually did more maths than usual. I actually almost complete the ppr. I wrote something for every fucking question but who believes me right? Everything i do is just a fucking joke. Even yesterday when i was freaking vaccuming, you asked me to STOP PLAYING. SORRY, I DIDN'T REALISE THE VACCUM CLEANER WAS NOT A TOY.

I'm wasting my everything on you and Katy Perry. I cannot... I feel like... i don't know anyone anymore... Like... I... I DON'T FUCKING KNOW LA. I feel like saying I LOVE YOU LAU SOCK GHIM but it just doesn't... seem... ahh....

You know how fucking horrible it is to sit there and hear people complaining about their marks that are actually way better than mine? They tell me about how they should study more or whatever shit and i just sit there and smile at them. I guess nobody should pity me since well, i bought this upon myself. IT'S MY FAULT. NEVER STUDY. NEVER PUT IN EFFORT. I fucking did. Why can't you just understand that I JUST FREAKING CAN'TTTTTTTTT. All i want is... katy perry LMFAO. i don't freaking know what to do now